We had very peaceful weekend. I actually hate to see Monday come. I notice a big change in Chris when the aide is here.

It seems like the Baclifin has finally started to help him. The neurologist now has him taking 60mg daily. The chronic stiffness in his leg, arm and hand are getting much better. Although he still says he has pain, I wonder if that pain is not actually soreness from being stiff for so long.

Thursday he had minor surgery on his foot. That seems to be healing well, the only bugging problem this weekend was that he had to keep his foot elevated. But he got through it.

I need to find a solution - it is really starting to bother me that every 5 minutes Chris is calling for me - he always wants something - "I need ice in my glass - I can't find the right channel, so on and so on. I realize that his eyesight is very, very poor and basically he can't do too much for himself - but enough!!!!! Tonight after dinner we started watching a movie together, I wasn't sitting for 10 minutes and he started again. He needed this, that and everything else. Finally I told him that this had to stop and he needed to realize that I needed to have some time to "chill out." Of course when I say things like that to him - he always thinks that I am mad at him or he will say "Sorry I bothered you." I'm not gonna allow him to place a guilt trip on me.

Tuesday my father and I are going to look at a van. For awhile now I have been trying to transfer Chris into the front seat of my parents van, and I am killing myself. Chris cannot stand and he doesn't bear any weight on his legs when transferring, so I am lifting and moving dead weight. I found this van this weekend which I am hoping will work just to wheel him right into the back of it.

I can't believe that I did no cleaning this weekend. Actually I had no time. The only thing that I did accompish was the laundry and of course taking care of Chris. I'm trying to tell myself that the dirt will always be there and it will wait for me until I have time to deal with it.

As I am sitting here typing this, I'm hearing Chris moaning for no reason at all. I really hope it is not going to be a bad night. I don't deal well with not getting enough sleep.