It never fails to amaze me how much my mental outlook and attitude can change so dramatically in just 24 hours. I guess one of my biggest complaints is since my stroke there seems to be little if any balance to my feeling, emotions my outlook the way I view the world around me, and how I feel inside. Yesterday started rather badly but by early mid morning things were sailing along everything going my way. No cross circuit burnout in my brain, no simple misunderstandings that at the time seem like insurmountable obstacles no sudden plunges into the stressed world of total anxiety when merely breathing seems just too much to ask. I know and feel that my old confidence is trying to reestablish itself and this is amplified by those working around me by that simple smile between co-workers that states hey job well done. I guess someday your yeng and yang are in perfect harmony and trying to figure out why is not only futile but also dangerous because you may actually through you whole little universe into total chaos and the smooth enjoyable ride becomes something more akin to riding the big dipper (a roller coaster at a local amusement part) without benefit of a seat belt. Pre- stroke that was how I enjoyed doing projects, flying by the seat of my pants, managing by reaction rather than reflection, gambling every thing that I had the ability to pull all the loose strings together with a whole 10 minutes to spare. And watching the horrified look on my clients face turn to a smile of mystified satisfaction. Then having that person (my client) say,