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Emotions and motion


MargaretMary

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:(:angry2: :wicked: :wacko: I think I could use a few more faces but then...... I had hoped I had things back in a somewhat controlled atmosphere and then the bottom dropped out again. I hate feeling this way. I hate having to be the mean one. I hate it when those that say they will help are more of a burden than help. I hate being lied to, and then getting excuses instead of truth. I hate being tired and no one seems to give a damn. I hate those that take and give nothing in return, I think that is what this world has come to. Everyone out for themselves and forget who they run into on the path of "searching for ones self."

 

I am going to hold off on signing any more adoption papers. The agency has lied to me so many times now that I am wondering what is next. The kids are in need of help that I am not qualified to give or even knowledgable about, and they are dragging their feet, no that is not the right way of saying it. They are ignoring my pleas for help. Maybe this will wake them up. I know that they have heard by now, and I have been told that they don't know where they would place the kids if I give them back. A few calls have already started today. We'll see, we'll see.

 

I cleaned the cupboards today, inside and out. A thankless job because no one sees it unless they open the cupboard doors. But I know it is done and that is all that counts. The laundry is finally getting caught back up after being neglected while taking care of things for Mom and Dad. My sister came for a few days to sit with our parents and give me a break from running back and forth. I still have to go up there each day but she is doing the cooking and cleaning for now. She has been here 2 days and her husband is already chomping at the bit for her to come home. She was suppose to stay for at least a week. Oh well 3 days was better than none.

 

My mind is in constant motion and I can't sleep. I am lucky to get 2 hours a night now. I think I will see about a sleeping aid of some kind. Maybe that will help. Doc will help me out. Well, this isn't getting the dishes done. I hate having dirty dishes in the morning when I am trying to get kids off to school.

 

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