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Wednesday


daughter_of_light

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Dear Diary,

 

it has been two weeks since my Dad passed on. i continue to miss him. i continue to feel guilty when i forget that he is gone.

 

i am guilty of being glad he is no longer suffering or bound to his bed.

 

i wish the moments i had stayed home because of my health- i had not given in and went to him any way. i wish there had been more photo's. i wish i had owned a video recorder and been able to capture his spirit on film.

 

i guess i have a lot of regrets. i hope my regrets become advise for others. that they not let opportunities go by. that they grab the camera and get a camcorder.

 

oh, well... this is the point where dad would say, it doesn't matter. so :blush: i'l close.

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Your thoughts were my thoughts when my dear dad died. The difference was that I still had my husband who had had strokes and my Mum who had dementia living with me.

 

I still have some regrets about my father's death as he died wothout his family with him. Mum and I had visited at lunchtime but he wasn't alert and we left after about ten minutes or so (that was as long as she could visit for). Although the hospital called us he had died by the time we got there.

 

I guess you have to remember what you did manage to do for someone and not regret that there wasn't a perect ending.

 

Sue.

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Daughter of Light,

 

Oh Sweetie, I feel your pain. I know your loss. My brother died at the age of 33. He had a grand mal epileptic seizure that he didn't come out of. His heart stopped. We weren't there with him and the grief was overwhelming. But Honey, he was a professional stand up comedian, I have hours and hours of his performances on VHS, I have his movie on CD, I have boxes of photographs. It doesn't help. I still don't have David.

 

You've lost a very important part of your world and it's devastating right now. For months, I couldn't look at an energy bar without bursting into tears - because David loved energy bars. Stupid but, true - you should have seen the looks I got at the grocery store.

 

It takes a lot to move on and live again when someone you've loved is gone. Have faith in yourself, you'll get through the pain and see the light again. Your Dad would want that.

 

~V

 

 

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