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STARTING OVER


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WOW. THIS "STARTING OVER" IS JUST STARTING TO HIT HOME. <_< :bop: I STROKED 12-03, AND WAS MARRIED TO THE MEANEST MOST CALLOUS LETCH ON THE PLANET. AFTER 11 YEARS OF MARRIAGE, I FINALLY CUT HIM LOOSE, IRONICALLY, OUR DIVORCE WAS SIGEND ON THE SECOND ANNIVERSARY OF THE STROKE. I HATE TO CALL IT "MY STROKE" BECAUSE THAT'S LIKE SAYING IT IS "ALL MINE", LIKE IT'S A FRIEND OR SOMETHING.

 

 

ANYWAY, I SOLD MY HOUSE, QUIT MY JOB, AND MOVED 500 MILES AWAY TO BE WITH MY NEW LOVE. WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS OVER A YEAR. HE IS NOTHING BUT SWEET AND UNDERSTANDING. ****HOWEVER****. I AM IN A NEW STATE, ( MOSTLY CONFUSION) AND THERE IS THE ALTITUDE CHANGE AND WEATHER CHANGES TO GET USED TO UP HERE IN GOOD OLE' KENTUCKY. ( I AM FROM ALABAMA) ALSO, A NEW JOB THAT'S SO SO SO SO DIFFERENT FROM WHAT I HAVE BEEN USED TO FOR TEN YEARS.

 

 

GOOD LORD AM I FOOLING MYSELF. I AM 43 YEARS OLD, A STROKE SURVIVOR WITH SO MANY HEALTH PROBLEMS I QUALIFY FOR DISABILTY. BUT AS LONG AS I CAN WALK AND BREATHE, I WILL NOT APPLY. I WANNA WORK. I TRY TO "MAINSTREAM" AND ACT "NORMAL". IT FOOLS MOST EVERYONE, EXCEPT FOR MYSELF. I AM *****NOT***** THE SAME ENERGETIC STRONG PHYSICALLY ABLE PERSON I USED TO BE.

I AM WONDERING CONSTANTLY IF "THEY" WILL NOTICE. I HOPE NOT. I DON'T WANT ANYONE TO KNOW. I WANNA BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.

 

OH WELL, WHAT WE DO FOR LOVE.

 

 

KIM

 

 

 

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Kimmer I totally understand the longing to turn back the hands of time...but we can't. I have no visible deficits and that makes understanding the stroke harder. I am usually pretty long winded(sp) but I will stop there. I just wanted to say your understood.

 

sgriffin :forgive_me?:

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Wishing you the BEST of LUCK in all your new endevors..

 

Just remeber to take time to rest and re charge... trying to "fit" in and show the world you are like eveyone else takes energy..

And then the change of places, learning your way around, new job, etc

 

Best Wishes to you

Bonnie

 

 

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I got the groceries.

 

:D

 

 

 

Try to enjoy each and every day. Get up in the morning with a smile and get to sleep at night with a smile.

 

 

:thankyou:

 

 

 

Bill

:gleam:

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