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My usually "RANTING" about nothing...ENJOY


sgriffin

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I started blogging a few times and still came up with this...Nothing. Everything I want to say I am scared to say for the fear of offending someone who doesn't even know this site exsist. There is a lot that I have learned about my family(not just my mother) that I don't like. I am not proclaiming to be prefect in no way, shape, or form but it is what it is. I want to open their eyes to the world and allow them to see that there is more to life than the rut they have been stuck in generation after generation.

 

All our family gatherings play out the same with the same people and conversations. We have nothing new to talk about and I can see this cycle never ending. Since my close call with death or life with disabilities I have a new prespective and I want to live life and experience new things. I have a weekender planned for the spring break with my son and something in the summer. Each was "AGAINST" the advice of someone in my family.

 

I can see the that recovery from the stroke has cycles that keeps repeating itself. I have somehow regressed to anger :angry2: which I have been trying so hard to reach acceptance. Learning the phases and dissecting each and every one of them I have learned a lot about me. I'll end here because I can go on and on about nothing. :yadayada:

 

Shelia

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Sheila:

 

I can truely understand your feelings, sometime when we try to please everyone by accepting their opinions, but I think life is too short so if you want to do something with your son, go ahead and do it, I always wanted to go to Europe and every time due to vacation conflicts and stuff we had postpond our trip, so after my stroke we decided let's go when I still have chance, there were so many counter arguments by hubby why it won't be great in packaged tour, and last year we did it, and hubby enjoyed the most, and this year we are visiting India (we are from India), ans hubby wants to do packaged tour in India too :D. point I m trying to say sometime we listen to opinions and don't do things which we would like to do and when something bad happens it becomes our loss, so I strongly feel, do whatever makes you happy

 

Asha

 

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Shelia,

Think of it this way regarding your family and the dullness of the same thing generation after generation... If you want to change things, it won't be easy, BUT think of it as making a new path threw the jungle which is heavy with weeds and underbrush. Think of all that can be discovered in that new direction instead of taking the path that is known and well used. If someone decides to follow you, well that is a bonus, if they don't, it is their loss and the saying that you can lead a horse to water but you can't make them drink applies here.

Besides think of yourself, you are trying to reach acceptance, keep your focus and energies on that, don't split yourself up to include your family right now. Maybe in the future, they'll be interested and come to you for help and advice.

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GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

 

SHELIA, DID YOU WRITE THIS BLOG OR DID I???????? LOL. SHELIA, I AM A LITTLE OVER TWO YEARS POST STROKE, AND I GET IN THE "ANGER MODE" A LOT. I FEEL I SHOULD BE IN "ACCEPTANCE", YET I WOULD BE LYING IF I SAID I WAS.

 

 

YOU ARE CERTAINLY NOT ALONE GIRL.

 

 

LOVE YA

KIM

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