I think you get to a certain period in your life after a stroke when it is like waking up from an automated world & regaining your sense of belonging , it is 15 months since Baz had the stroke & for all that time I have just been trying to do the right thing primarily for Baz but ultimately for both of us!!

I kept everything the way it was & tried to do everything the way Baz did it, only in the last week or so have I thought that I can change things to the way I want & might make life easier...

I might even throw the things away that I know Baz will never use again , Chainsaw Grinders etc as I am sure I won't be using them!!!

It's funny how you cling to the things that are familiar, because it seems safe & you don'rt want the responsibility of changing them, but now I feel that I can make those decisions & it is liberating like a whole new phase of your life!!

:cheer: I have to decide what to do next the decision is frightening but I will do it!!!