What do you do when life throws you a curve ball? That's what life feels like since the stoke. It's like two steps forward and two steps back...no matter what I do I keep showing up in the exact same spot I was in 1 year ago May 7th. I've tried throwing the damn balls back but since the right sided weakness they just fall to the ground, go figure! Man I would have not... IN A MILLION YEARS... thought I would have had a stroke. I can't keep up the it's going to be okay thing anymore, because if it was going to be okay I would have gotten a little relief by now. I never totally understood how screwed up SSI/SSDI was until I applied for it. I figured if I paid my taxes if I ever...IN A MILLION YEARS...needed it, it would be available. HA, boy was I wrong. If the government would give me what I and only I paid taxes for I would be satisfied. I don't want anyone elses hard earned money just mine!

I stroked on a Saturday my day off, I planned on going to work that following Monday one of the 2 jobs I had I really didn't mind, I loved being a nurse. But so far 1 year later I have not receive 1 cent :2cents: . Boy the next time I take a day off I will be sure not to have stroke.

sgriffin :notworking: