Vix's Blog

  • entries
    71
  • comments
    173
  • views
    10,542

This blasted E.L.


Vix

716 views

I was never one to cry in front of people, I would always lock myself in my bedroom / bathroom until I had composed myself. Well, how that has changed! Now I burst into tears for anything. It's most embarrassing, especially when it happens at work. I've already had an episode this morning and now, anything will set me off again. It's terrible.

5 Comments


Recommended Comments

Hey Vix! Where's your poker face? Smile through those tears and all will be forgiven.

 

Hope all was right this afternoon. Think of a summer on the beach and smile.

 

Sue.

Link to comment

Hope this helps, but I am 20 yrs. post stroke, and once in awhile, I'll cry, too, but it was much worse 20 yrs. ago -

Like a doctor told me - you have the right to cry - having a stroke is like a death, and we are grieving, but if it gets too bad, talk to your doctor as they do have meds that curtail this - but fortunately, mine stopped, but I can still get weepy over dumb things

Have been in your shoes

June :2cents:

Link to comment

Vix,

 

My husband suffers from severe emotional lability. This began after his stroke in March 2005. He calls it "wet eyes". You are so right - anything or nothing can set it off. Folks ask me if he is "alright" often and I just nod my head yes. I talked to one man at rehab who had the opposite of tears...He laughed. More embarrassing for him was the fact that he could sit in church and when everything was quiet for prayer start laughing - or break out in laughter when the minister was preaching.

 

My husband's psychiatrist did adjust his anti-depressant, but that hasn't taken care of it completely. At one point this winter he reduced the dosage but I noticed the tears increasing so we went back to the prior dosage.

 

I don't think Bill had cried for 30 years.....He was a Presbyterian minister, ministered to and buried many many AIDS patients in the 80s; he had really held all that pain and more in. He always had to be the rock. I told him after his stroke it was all those tears he'd never shed finally being released. He doesn't cry for himself, it always seems to be when he hears a story of others hurting or sees someone else crying.

 

Just know you aren't alone - it's part of the "stuff". I wouldn't be afraid to do some research and let those you work with know what's going on. And remember - you could be laughing at anything or nothing - and the boss would REALLY like that!!!

 

Warmly,

 

Link to comment

I am a 20 yr. survivor, and years ago, I cried at the drop of a pin, but a doctor told me, a stroke is like a death, and all the emotions are involved, i. e. laughing, crying, but for me, it was tears & 20 yrs. later, its not as bad but I can get weepy just seeing an argument that does not concern me

 

GOOD LUCK, GOD BLESS & its natural for both caregivers and survivors to grieve - we all grieve in different ways

June

Link to comment

OMG, usually I can control it more in public EXCEPT when someone else starts crying (in this case it was a woman who had just lost her 8 year old to cancer and her husband a little over a year ago) she started giving testimony to our school board about how great our director was to her. When she started there's no way I could hold back. We still lost the director to our board's "wisdom", so now we don't have a director or a principle and 18 days before school. Its gotten better (EL)than before but I can still cry too over dumb things.... :(

Link to comment
Guest
Add a comment...

×   Pasted as rich text.   Paste as plain text instead

  Only 75 emoji are allowed.

×   Your link has been automatically embedded.   Display as a link instead

×   Your previous content has been restored.   Clear editor

×   You cannot paste images directly. Upload or insert images from URL.