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I feel alive again...


Robyn

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...OK...and a little tired too! LOL! Gracious, I had a great weekend with my friend, Roxanne! We met lots of new people and just had a grand time. I realized I need more sleep than I gave myself this weekend, especially since I'm STILL trying to battle off my cold. Guess I'm not as young as I used to be...!

 

This is all part of the process, right?! Returning to LIVING...enjoying life and being with people and just reconnecting with myself again. It felt glorious...first time in months I felt whole again!

 

I sent her stuff back FINALLY along with a long letter sharing my feelings and pain. It felt great actually to just move forward in the process by getting rid of two boxes of her things hanging around my house. Another step in my closure...I'm almost there. I still feel like there is something still left to complete...unsure what and I'm unsure its actually something I have to do, but perhaps I'm expecting to hear from her one last time to not just close the door, but to also lock it. I don't know so I'm just staying in the moment and letting the universe give me what it needs to give me.

 

I have learned after this weekend, in case it wasn't clear to me before, that the universe DOES provide...it is amazing!!!!! It's ALL GOOD!!!!

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Robyn:

 

I am happy you are doing so good, but at the same time don't close that window of ours in your world, we all love you around here and appreciate your support. so keep on blogging ups and downs both

 

Asha

 

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Not to worry...I'm not going anywhere. I just may not post every day but I'll try to get here a couple of days a week! I really care for y'all and I love blogging here. It feels safe and protected and I feel very supported!

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Robyn,

 

When you rid yourself of that cold, get your Flu shot if you didn't yet. You gotta stick around to see my bears win the superbowl. You beat my other predictions so far!!

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I got my flu shot the other day. It was OK to do it because I didn't have a fever!!!

 

Bears winning the superbowl, eh...we'll see...we'll see!!!!!!!!! :lol:

 

Thanks everyone...I'm not leaving...not any time soon!

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Hi Good to hear from you! And with such good news :friends:

 

Glad you are sticking around.. we would we be thinking of you and wondering...lol

 

Whatever the something is.... it will come and you can lock the door.

 

so happy you are moving forward and enjoying new firends making new memories.

 

How are Sam and Margret?

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Bonnie..that's what someone said to me...making new memories! I liked thinking of it that way!

 

Sam and Margaret are great. They adored Halloween...had tons of fun! Margaret did GREAT in school and got all A's and an A- on her report card. Sam's behaviors have evened out and now we are dealing more with typical 4 year old boy stuff rather than a child that is truly disturbed about something. Life's good!!!

 

I am going to a week long spiritual retreat over Christmas and New Years and I think that will complete my circle of healing in some ways...but I'm still just taking it one day at a time!

 

Here is the link to the retreat I am going to during my time at my retreat house...

 

http://www.kripalu.org/program/type2/all/RYW061

 

 

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I don't really know you but it sounds like you've made a lot of progress. I know it must feel good to find yourself again and feel more whole and normal. I hope the goodness continues for you.

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thanks...it was my ex partner who had a stroke and I'm just trying to heal from the breakup that happened right after it. She left me...I didn't leave her...weird eh?!! I've come to the clear conclusion it is her loss... But it doesn't help the hurt. Thankfully the hurt is minimizing every day...

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Robyn,

 

And...remember - especially when you're feeling down, that easier days are coming - just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other (or in my case, LOL, ) my kiddo saya I walk like a penguin. Looking forward to going to see the movie Happy Feet!

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Exactly, Donna...the days ARE easier. I had a dream about her last night...it was interesting and is making me think a bit. Not about getting back together with her, but more about forgiveness. In my dream she was just simply out of it. Absolutely NOT the person I fell in love with... Somehow that is helping me... Still working on it...

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Hello my friend!

Soooooo very glad to hear you so upbeat and cheerful - very glad to hear that Sam and Margaret are doing well too - probably has a lot to do with you feeling better too :Clap-Hands: I know everyone here feels joy that you have come so far.

 

I'll have to do my movie list as well - we've quite a few of those in common :popcorn:

 

I'm jealous! no, just envious really of your opportunity to do the retreat - it looks wonderful! Looking forward to hearing you rave about it when you return! :big_grin:

Blessed Be!

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Thanks sweetie...I've missed you! How are you feeling? How is your health and all the other things going on in your wonderful life??!!!! How is your daughter...ACK...I have tons of questions!

 

Get that movie list done so we can compare notes!!

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Robyn,

 

In the midst of my crazy, busy summer I've been missing the site. I was thrilled to read this thread. To me, I'm seeing ROBYN and it gives me so much joy to hear you healing. It's also proof positive that the world does go on and the support we all receive here (as well as other places) serves a valuable, valuable purpose.

 

It's also wonderful to hear the kids are on their way, too. I bet Sam will always be your more sensitive one!

 

Love to you,

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The world does go on...I knew it in the midst of it all, I just was unhappy about the changes. But yes, I am happy...joyful...full of life again! This place has been invaluable!!! I love y'all!!

 

This is the real me...I HAVE RETURNED!!! BWAAAHAAAHAAAAAAA!!!!! It's all good. Sending her box of crap back to her finally pushed me to the final healing place I think. It helps, as I've said before, that we had a long distance relationship...nothing to disentangle...

 

Sam is doing great as is Margaret...YIPPEE!! And they will be with their dad this weekend as I have fun and get some work done!!!

 

Welcome back Ann!!! Missed ya!

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