I called my cardiologist today to see when my next appointment would be. Yes, that is a fear of mine-going to the Cardiologist. I have been waiting to get an appointment card in the mail from him, and hadn't.

Last week when I was chatting with my PCP, he asked when I go back to see him. I told him I didn't know. So my PCP asked me to call him to see when my next appointment will be.

I called today, and he had no notes written down on when I come back-so I left a voicemail for his nurse.

Maybe I will have graduated from yearly to every 5 or something great like that?? I don't know, except for when I think about going to the cardiologist I get extreme anxiety.

I asked my PCP if he heard a "Murmur" or anything and my PCP said "No." But my PCP also knows that I can freak out good-maybe he just didn't want me to freak???

My worst fear is the valve I had repaired will deteriorate and I will have to under go open heart surgery again, or the angioplasty band around my valve will "slip off", or my sewn cleft mitral valve will unthread itself.

Okay-so maybe I need to self medicate???

Looking around room-Where's my purse???

~Amy