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a feeling of loss


mrsamymichelle

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Last week, we buried my grandfather. I now have one grandparent left. I guess I thought things would always stay "the same". What happens when my parents are gone too?? I will no longer have someone to go "visit" and no need to go back to my childhood town. I do not enjoy going back now, but knowing that one day I will not need to go back-makes me sad.

 

I did not recognize my grandfather at the visitation and I had gone to visit him a week b4 his death. I wouldn't have been able to pick him out, out of a casket line up. He was probably under 100 pounds, he died just like Terri Shavio, it was a hard thing to watch, but I am glad it is over now.

Nothing really to blog, this is just what has been on my mind.

~Amy

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Amy,

 

I know there are no words to comfort you, the process you need to go through can't be comforted. So I just hope you can feel these virtual hugs I'm sending.

 

But know one thing: there are parts of your grandparents and parents in you and you are passing those parts on to your daughter. It might just be the way you all smile or say a certain word, the way you walk and certainly your values...but those things will aways be there to remind you of better times with your grandparents and parents.

 

:friends: Jean

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Amy,

My sympathies are with you and your family. Keep in mind.....memories of your family from the home town will be good to share with your daughter as well as to keep the memories "alive" within you.

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Amy, family are part of our roots, our shared memories. They were the people who we were closest to as we learned all the important lessons in life, who loved us and supported us. We may grow out of the town we lived in but never over the precious memories it contained for us.

 

(((hugs)) from Sue.

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Hi and (((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))) yes all the other's have said, It is hard when we start losing family. But they have special memories and many times some trait from a grand parent or parent can be seen in the children..

 

I have gone thru some of the "old" photos and written names on the backs of the photos...

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Hi my thoughts are with you... I can relate to that, as my elderly mother inlaw is slowly dying and all we can do is try and feed her a bit, be there for her and hold her hand. She is too weak to open her eyes but she still knows we are there.. She too has lost a lot of weight.. We must remember the good times and all the fun we had.. These special moments can not be taken away and will live on in the generations to come. My husband is very emotional and finds it hard to visit with her very long as she can't relate to him any more so I end up going myself..The nursing home she is in is very kind to her and we could not care for her any better . It is only a few minutes from where we live so it is handy for someone to be there a couple times a day..We must remember they ae going to a better place.

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