Well today is my second day. It was going pretty good. I went to 2 dr appointments. They are telling me I need to start to enjoy things. I still ask how do I do that. I feel funny all the time. I have a dull headache occasionally but I am just supposed to just get back in there. I am SCARED and afraid and the first step is so hard. Sometimes I dream and everything is ok, I feel normal and then I wake up and see this is real and I feel no normal. WHY do I feel this way? Why can