Ok, I haven't been to sleep in over 24 hours, I just CANT fall asleep.

The stress of everything in my life, is crazy........

The City that my husband works for, over 19 years, is on the verge of filing for bankruptcy. We need to decide, should he stay, in hopes that it gets better over the next few years. Or should he get out now, why he hopefully has a few years left to establish himself somewhere else?

He has a 13 year old son that lives in the area we live in.....

We could try to stay here and him find employment elsewhere, but it's a really repressed area, so not sure how easy that would be. We could go to FL and live at my dads and continue his care from there, which would make my father really happy! Then there is the subject of my stepson again, leaving him here with his mother and being so far away... And the general fear of change.

Last night I laid in bed for 6.5 hours AWAKE and went over all of this in my head, forward and backwards and still haven't come any closer in what MIGHT be the right thing to do.

On top of all that, the nightmare thoughts of what the month in FL with may dad my be like.......

I sorta already know, no matter what he says from here, getting him to come back will be a task.

So from today forward, I will put it in God's hands....

"If he bring you to IT, He'll bring you through IT!"

No I wont, I'll stress like CRAZY, LOL, cause that's just ME!