17 months. I have blogged about this before and I find it to still be true - I find myself becoming more and more aware...'waking up'. by looking back and understanding things that I didn't or couldn't at the time. I wonder if and/or when I will ever be fully aware or awake.

I am coming out of the anger and bitterness that had such a tight grip on me. Bitterness at my body for betraying me, anger at myself for not getting to the hospital sooner. I feel the beginning of hope. :laughbounce:

It is a great feeling. It isn't related to my ability to recover. I think it is from my psychological growth and review of my situation. My birthday was yesterday. My first birthday since the stroke that I am happy that I am alive. My first birthday as a Dr. :yukyukyuk: and I am beginning to believe that I deserve the degree.

I am hopeful that my life will have a purpose.

There is no possible way that I could have made it as far as I have without Bob :hug: I hope to become half of the person he is. Honest, full of integrity, caring, selfless, truly the man of my dreams (Bob, I know you are reading this - I will still get irritated at you at times, just to warn you! )

There is hope and life after stroke. You couldn't have convinced me of this just months ago :nuhuh: As one of the biggest skeptics, I am here to say otherwise! :cheer: