maybe its just me, i don't know but i have always been the type of person to listen to others, if they say they are going to do something that involves me in some way. i expect them to follow through with it. i do understand things happen to change their plans, but a phone call would be nice with their apologies. since my stroke 1-5-02, i don't have alot of excitement in my life, so when someone says they are going to come by, or call, etc. that gives me something to look forward to. i get so lonely, since hubby works all day, and my dog has died, she kept me sane during the day, with me being able to talk to her and pet her. i miss her terribly, she was so much company for me, my other pets (dog and 2 cats, sleep most of the day) my case in point is as i stated in my last blog entry that my 2nd mother was in town and was going to stop by, so i really was excited to see her, then boom, no visit or phone call. her daughter is the same way but we have been friends for over 25yrs, so i just accepted the way she was and loved her just the same. she was here for my son's wedding and was to come by the next day before she left town, but she didn't come by, it bothered me alot caused we really havent seen each other for 2yrs. she used to live here then she moved to colo. with her new husband, i can understand that. i talk to her on the phone from time to time, but its not the same, she has been there for me since my stroke.

maybe i shouldn't be complaining, but things like this really upsets me, moreso post stroke, i guess they just don't realize what my days are like. i try to keep busing during the day, i have my routine, but i still get bored and lonely at times. i couldn't or wouldn't do that to anyone else, i do what i say i'm going to do, not to upset people, i always had pride in myself for that and others would comment on it to. i guess alot of us live in an isolated world now. like i said, maybe its just me and probably it is. i just wish people were more in tune to other peoples feelings. i know they have a life too, but just don't say it if your'e not going to do it, my hubby irrates me to in this area. yes i am on meds, but this has always ticked me off, more pronounced now since stroke, go figure. JUST VENTING. thanks for listening.