Ok, so I actually went back and read all the blogs that I had done. I was so depressing. Why didn't anybody tell me? :2cents: Anyway, I was thinking about all that I had been through with my mom's stroke and my dad's drinking himself to death. And I look where I am today. My husband and I were just out on the golf cart looking at our property and just driving down the country road. This time last year, I was pulling my hair out hating my dad and hating life in general and now I have just about everything I ever wanted. I wish my mom was still here to see me, but I know that she is in spirit. I still have bad dreams about my dad :Dr_Evil: and everything he put me through.

Life is getting better every day. I really don't have anything to complain about. Which is really nice for a change. I am going to be a grandma and I can't wait for that. I love my daughter in law probably more than anyone else in this world. :giggle: It is so nice to be happy and be able to do the things I want to do. If I want to spend the day riding my horse, I can. I don't have to answer to anyone but myself. :cheer: I now have 3 beautiful and wonderful dogs. I have the house of my dreams. I have 3 wonderful horses. I have my husband still and I love him so much for sticking in there with me when things were really bad with my parents. :forgive_me?:

I also have found the courage to get on with my life. That includes being involved here again. I was so lost for quite a while, but now I am found and I know where I belong. I also know what I am doing. Well, maybe not what I am doing all the time, but for the most part I know where I am going and what I am doing with my life.

I am ready for this new life I have created for myself. And as bad as it may sound, I deserve to have the most awesome life from this point on!

Well, it is time for me to get ready to shut down for the night. I will write again soon!