I had a rough week, the depression hit me hard, and I erased all previous blog postings. :forgive_me?:
So I will start again.
I was most pleased with my post on what a stroke is like for the survivor. :dribble:
Everyone has different experiences for their stroke. I didn't have any headache.
In fact THE BIG ONE happened at night. I woke up only half there. :tired:
I didn't even realize until I tried to get up. how can that be you ask. have you ever lost your house keys. why didn't you know they were lost until you needed them. it would be apparent if you felt something but your mind is so used to having a whole body, unless something alerts it like landing flat on the floor then trying to get up you are not conscious of it being gone.
the best comparison i can make is have you ever had your arm or leg go to sleep, did you know before you felt the pins and needles in it. i bet not.
I had severe left side neglect, why didn't i look that direction I was capable of doing so, in fact did not have any vision defect, it's about the same as you looking behind you, you just don't think to most of the time.
I have quite a few cognitive problems in fact even now I have hazy days.
it feels kind of like being drugged, with all of the medicine i was getting I just didn't think it was me.
have you ever started to talk about someone and suddenly couldn't remember their name.
that is what it is similar to what it is like.or maybe it's more like going from windows xp to windows 95 and trying the same programs. all your neat little shortcuts are no longer working, and you have to constantly watch what is going on so you don't crash the system. or driving a big suv, when suddenly you have a volkswagon engine.
I was rereading some of the hospital records and learned my interior carotid artery is blocked, i don't know why I didn't understand that before.
The hardest thing to manage is the emotions, antoine who ever had to deal with hormones during pregnancy can relate. some days I am just a bundle of tears, others I am easily irritated. :throw:
for some reason I have to take a multi vitamin with wellbutrin for it to help the depression, that is what happened this time. :hiya: