Where do I go from here?
I am actually doing pretty good today. I went to a friends house and played with his router trying to get it to work. No luck. He buys junk. Not my problem! But now I am left with the question, where do I go from here? Now that mom is gone, I feel lost. I have too much time on my hands. So much that I don't know where to start on anything. I don't know how to finish anything I start. I had a great day today. The house is so depressing. I can't get dad to get off the floor and even go outside for 5 minutes. I have so much that I want to do, but my mind is going 100 different directions. Is it wrong for me to want to go back to work? Am I not grieving right? See, I can't even keep my mind on blogging. I just jump from one thing to another and get nothing accomplished. I feel tired, even though I am finally getting some rest. Hmmm?? Too much to ponder right now, making me very sleepy Funny thing is I am not tired. See, I am a mess and just don't know it. I have always been a mess, but not this bad. Where do I go from here? Any ideas? I was thinking about visiting Cinder and running to the trees with her to protect her from the hobos, big dogs, and aliens!
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