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Where do I go from here?


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I am actually doing pretty good today. I went to a friends house and played with his router trying to get it to work. No luck. He buys junk. Not my problem! But now I am left with the question, where do I go from here? Now that mom is gone, I feel lost. I have too much time on my hands. So much that I don't know where to start on anything. I don't know how to finish anything I start. I had a great day today. The house is so depressing. I can't get dad to get off the floor and even go outside for 5 minutes. I have so much that I want to do, but my mind is going 100 different directions. Is it wrong for me to want to go back to work? Am I not grieving right? See, I can't even keep my mind on blogging. I just jump from one thing to another and get nothing accomplished. I feel tired, even though I am finally getting some rest. Hmmm?? Too much to ponder right now, making me very sleepy Neeeedsleeep.gif Funny thing is I am not tired. See, I am a mess and just don't know it. roflmao.gif I have always been a mess, but not this bad. Where do I go from here? Any ideas? I was thinking about visiting Cinder and running to the trees with her to protect her from the hobos, big dogs, and aliens!

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hey cyndi,

 

i'm afraid i have no good advice here. BECAUSE, i flit from one thing to the next to and have little concentration!!! one possible reason for this, mine and yours, is that maybe we take on too much sometimes when we should say no.

 

for instance, today i was as busy as i could be. no one came in today except me and good ole dad. he was too busy playing video poker to answer the phones. SO , in addition to trying to type assignments, i had to answer the phone. THEN, in the middle of "multi tasking" he asks "what's on the menu", translation: what are you making me for lunch.

 

since he has diabetes and is a heart patient, i feel obligated to "take care of him". i take care of everybody until sometimes there's no time left for me. anyway, that's what i see in all of this!!!!! if you can find a way to beat it, i wish you'd share it with me!!!!! lol

 

kim

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It's not too soon to look for work, if that's what you want. You're grieving normally Cyndi, you just had a chance to know and accept longer. I've been told to work on one thing at a time, if everything seems too much.

 

PS. If you go to the woods with me, you need: $50.00, dog biscuits, hobo repellent, and you have to be quiet. If you're good you can lay on the couch with Jean.

 

 

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