I think I may have mentioned my intention of driving my Miata around locally. I was excited but by the same time scared. The driveway was cleared out and I was free to go. It was like the door to the bird's cage was open to freedom, yet the bird did not leave. I ruminated about things that could happen and I started scaring myself.
At heart, I am a coward. But I don't think that is the way to live this life. If I had cowered in the corner all my life, I'd have been missing out on a whole bunch of wonderful adventures I had, not to mention the concomitant emotions I felt during scary times and then the exhilaration I felt in successfully completing those adventures. I don't like to be scared so I threw all that aside and after admitting how upset I would be if I got a scratch on my car, off I went.
It was a beautiful day. I should've put the top down but I didn't. I drove around town, which has a very speedy speed limit of 25 mph. I made it up to 2nd gear (Whoo-Hoo!). I did get on a road that had a speed limit of 30 mph. I was flying It was great. The streets are narrow but I did not hit anything nor did anything hit me.
I don't know if I will ever be the driver that I was, but I am enjoying tooling around town. Today, I went out to two stores on errands and came back scathless. I was very proud of the fact that I went out and foraged for food and came back w/ a package of breadsticks, like the brave hunter/provider for my family. Today tired me out more than yesterday but I know I will get stronger. I don't how long it will take to get me out on a highway and back to regular driving. I will just take it easy and enjoy the ride. LIFE IS GOOD.
I marvel that I came back from being paralyzed from the neck down, that I survived a brainstem bleed stroke (My aunt died of an AVM in her braintstem at about the same age I was when I had my stroke--and she wasn't originally diagnosed as having the flu!) to walking and now driving. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! Take Care. LK