I have just read the replies to my "normal" post. Thanks to all of you for caring. Sue I know you are right and I am trying hard to get started its just very hard for me right now. I try every day. I have taken a break from going to the hospital every day. I know he is being cared for and they will call me if there are any changes. I have planned a day off from work and I am going to a breakfast event at a beautiful hotel for breast cancer survivors with my friend who is also a survivor. We have been friends for more than 35 years. I am thinking about a yoga class and will look into it. I know that i need to do other things to be healthy its just a HUGE adjustment and I loved being part of a couple and a team and i resent being "single", but I know I need to suck it up and get over it or i will sink. I think all of you women are wonderful and helpful to be so attentive to what i write and I appreciate all the input.