My biological rellted units finally revealed to me the way they really feel about me. I was talking to my maternal unit, and mentioned that I was happy in the Air Force and she reacted as if I told her my eyes were brown (they are blue,) she said no I wasn't. She later informed me that my brother gave me a job, as if it wasn't for him I would be homeless. And for me the final straw that really broke the camels back is that I am basically a drunk and it is only a matter of time until I start drinking again. At first, I was very depressed and hurt, but once the reality set in, I got mad beyond believe. :Argh: On Monday I filed a probable fraud to the SSA about my male sibling unit, and started discussions with a lawyer.

I also went on Google and found a very good job lead in Virginia. It is doing Imagery Intelligence, which is what I did in the AF (the time I was so unhappy). I am more than qualified and really hope I get the job.

My maturnal unit has alzsheimers, and it is getting worse. Although he was the main source of my abuse, I think I will still call him on Saturdays, but I devenitly have a whole new perspective of him.

I talked to my counselor today and she is going to check into finding me an apartment and called to the county social services about getting the $3000 my male sibling unit stole from me.

Also, if I am able to get the job in Virginia I will start a completly new life, giving my address a phone number to only a select few.

It is really odd, but when I had my near death experience I first felt a sense of anger and power, and I was told I had been betrayed. I really did not understand it at first; but now I know.