Well I really havent been doing much lately. I have to complete 30 hours of community service for my scholarship requirement but I am still waiting on organizations to contact me. I have not started tutoring yet because I need transportation. On Saturday I went to a mentor training because I was invited to mentor children with incarcerated parents and at risk youth. but i dont think I want to do it. I think Im a great role model but I dont have transportation and as a mentor I would have to pick my mentee up and take them places. On top of that no one under 18 can come to my apartment because of liability so I really wouldnt be able to do anything with my mentee. Maybe I will try next year. Yesterday I drove home from my apartment again (about 15 miles.) Then I drove to the store and back home. My dad said he will be sending me to the store by myself before I know it. I hope the DMV approves of my driving next July. I like driving with my dad though. I feel more secure.

Oh yeah the parade was pretty good. Sorry no pics. My mom, dad, and grandma all forgot the camera. My arm was so tired of waiving! I waved for atleast 2 hours and everytime I would stop to rest my arm someone else would start waiving at me! I was glad when it was over lol. We won the homecoming game and the stepshow was so much fun. Therefore, my stroke anniversary was the best so far. I guess 7 is my lucky number?

I still have not talk to my "best friend". I dont know if shes not calling because shes mad at me or because Im not calling her. What hapend was about a month ago her boyfriend went psycho on her. She told me the entire story from beginning to end and her boyfriend is really crazy and needs help. So instead of telling her parents, she decided to keep it from them and try to work things out with her boyfriend although this is not the first time he has lashed out on her and made her feel unsafe. All I said was she should have told someone what happend then she got all mad and told me she regrets even telling me the story because now she's afraid that I might tell someone or already have. This hurt me because she already doesnt tell me anything. Ever since her boyfriend came into the picture 3 years ago, he has become her new BFF she tells all her secrets too. She claims I told 2 of her secrets from a long time ago. Even though I didnt. So I felt like well don't tell me anything anymore. She cant even trust me and we are supposed to be bestfriends even though I tell her everything. I just felt really offended for her to say that. And I felt hurt that she is letting him come between our friendship AGAIN after time and time again. It really isnt fair. When she is at my house she has to talk to him on the phone or "hell go psycho" as she says and when Im at her house he gets mad if she doesnt talk to him. yet when she is with him she doesnt even answer my calls. I have been dealing with this for 3 years and I really dont care anymore. When he was at training all summer, I let her hang out with me but as soon as he came back, she didnt even so much as to say goodbye before she went to college because she was too busy with him. Bestfriends dont let guys come in between. Not to mention, this is my COUSIN for crying outloud. We have been best friends since we were in diapers, not just 3 years. but its ok. I have other friends and I have a new boyfriend so when her boyfriend goes to Alaska she better not come crying back to me because I am tired of being nice and I will give her the cold shoulder just like she is doing to me.

Sorry that was so long. It was my first time venting about HER but Im done now. I will update later this week after my doctor appointments.