tascha:

I am glad you are able to join us back. have you looked at the volunteering around your neigbhourhood to keep you occupied & entertained. going to curves 3 times week sound like great idea. don't associate yur happiness with loosing weight. how about able to go to curves & being able to work out is big deal. lot of able bodis people don't have that kind of discipline. Also try going off AD pills slowly instead of just cutting off completly. I weaned myself off them. & I am doing great. when you feel blue write blog & start counting your blessings. I know that has helped me immensely.

Asha

You gotta play with that laptop every day you will not be sad, or bored I betcha. Tell yourself "you got it under control" it works for me.

 

Do you have windows Vista on your laptop? And how long do your battery last, stay charged up? Put your mind to what ever it is you want to do and just do it! You can lose the 20 lbs if you let it happen. Think happy thoughts, do happy things for yourself and family members too.

 

Don't watch too much news, it's all sad with so much going on in the world today. Watch the old re-runs of the game shows, the Cosby show and many other TV shows.

 

Check your emails, explore your laptop until you can operate it from top to bottom. Just some ideas?? Take care and welcome back!

thanks to everyone for their comments. for the record, i was weaned off the ads by my psychiatrist and over the course of 4 months. the depression returned after 4 more months and i think it was triggered by the wedding of my daughter and her ensuing pregnancy. the whole idea of being a completely "unecessary" person in the universe finally got to me. no more dependent children, etc. so i started st john's wort and that helped me over the next 2 months and followed with the busyness of the holidays. so i went back to the therapist for cognitive therapy and limped my way through december and then the new year hit me on the head with a hammer.

during the regular year, i do keep busy with volunteer activities. at this point for me depression is a wolf i must actively push away from my door with my own mental strength. sometimes i just get tired of doing that. i'm sure things will improve as time progresses.

i let the wolf in the door yesterday and that was a mistake. so after a good night's sleep and a good cry i'm back and ready to battle him again.

thanks to all of you who responded.

cathy

Cathy,

Welcome back dear friend. We've missed you - glad to see you up and operating. Computers are great as long as they are up and operational. I remember when we moved and I had to start over with a new computer - what a pain in the duppa lol.

Winter weather can also affect our mood. I know it does me even if I'm in the house looking out. Just a hint of sunshine seems to make all much better.

My doc has had me on AD's since July - she recommends a year being on them so I don't have any major relapses after I go off of them.

Hang in there and know that we're here for you.

hi donna,

thanks for the pat on the back. i don't know what the hell is going on, i'm just on the verge of tears all the time and i'm so tired of it. i agree about the weather. i do miss the sunshine. i was on the meds for over a year. so i guess i'll start all over again in 2009. oh well, at least there are drugs.

thanks for being there, i', sure i'll be back more often now that i actually have it all bookmarked.

Cathy