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2008 is ending

ksaul

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it is a relief to say that Christmas is over. Everyone around the condos all seem to share the letdown caused by the expectations we all have of the perfect family holiday. Ours was fine...i was amazed and, almost appalled, at the number of expensive gifts our grandson Connor received. Perhaps I was just overwhelmed by the day but things were certainly different when i was a kid. gee, i swore i would never say that.

 

i have been reading posts and blogs this morning and am thinking of the issues members have coming up or are going through. Hospital tests, procedures, family fights, anniversary dates and season depression.......and i am touched by the strength of the human spirit and the depth of love a person can have for another.

 

sue's blog about not to worry about tomorrow really touched me. i am so much more fearful of the future than i was pre stroke. i am starting to realize that i expend too much emotional energy in this area. i worry about money and what will happen if something happens to my hubby. he was not a planner and without his pension (which stops when he does) i will have just my ssdi. he always saw me as strong, working and self-sufficient. i can make myself nutsy over the situation and now i realize that what happens will happen. i need to let go of what i have no control over.

 

my sister gave me a Y membership for christmas and wants me to try to get back in the water and exercise. i am going to try, but i am going to pace myself and try not to overdo. i still have a very hard time accepting that i do not have the stamina that i used to. i push myself and then get tired and once i am tired i just get emotional and go down hill from there. i have been thinking about this cycle i set up and put myself through; i am trying to learn to say no to others and stop to myself. it goes against my basic personality which was always living life to the fullest and being a doer. somehow i have to moderate and live my life to its fullest within the parameters of my stroke without being defined by the stroke.

 

i am so grateful for my cyber friends and family here. it is often their wisdom and humor that help me over a rough spot. i know now that my family will never understand my stroke.......and i am begining to accept this so, i have come to rely on the support here at strokenet.

 

so, as the old year comes to an end and we look forward to 2009, i wish everyone health, happinnes and love in their lives and a special wish for peace in the world. kathy

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merichsen

Kathy,

Either I'll have to don Bosox gear or you Yankee, either way one of us will have our kids disown us, but we'll room together honey. If nothing else we'll die of laughter eyebrowless and blind with bad haircuts. Don't stress and overwork yourself, you will be fine. Things seems to have a way of working out. Continue to say no to others and stop to yourself, running yourself into the ground won't improve your fatigue issue. All will be fine honey and you can always come and live with me.

Maria :friends:

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ksaul
Kathy,

Either I'll have to don Bosox gear or you Yankee, either way one of us will have our kids disown us, but we'll room together honey. If nothing else we'll die of laughter eyebrowless and blind with bad haircuts. Don't stress and overwork yourself, you will be fine. Things seems to have a way of working out. Continue to say no to others and stop to yourself, running yourself into the ground won't improve your fatigue issue. All will be fine honey and you can always come and live with me.

Maria :friends:

 

maria,

can you imagine what our combined sock collection would be like? wow! see you at the new year's party.......kathy :D

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HostAsha

Kathy:

 

reading your blog made me realize I also worrying about what if hubby scenario in my mind all the time. But I think I have figured if we can weather stroke we are strong enough to weather whatever life throws at us. so just enjoy your today without any worry for future or expectation from today.

 

Asha

 

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dstraugh

Kathy,

 

It is tough to learn to "pace" ourselves now. Like you, I was always the go-go-go person - always on the move and ready to take on the world. We had strokes but strokes don't have us - we must keep plugging onward and not let that filthy thing called stroke win out.

 

Enjoy your Y membership - you go girl - never know you could be our next olympiad :rolleyes: I like Maria's idea of us all living together. US versus the world :cheer:

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ksaul
Kathy,

 

It is tough to learn to "pace" ourselves now. Like you, I was always the go-go-go person - always on the move and ready to take on the world. We had strokes but strokes don't have us - we must keep plugging onward and not let that filthy thing called stroke win out.

 

Enjoy your Y membership - you go girl - never know you could be our next olympiad :rolleyes: I like Maria's idea of us all living together. US versus the world :cheer:

 

donna,

i like maria's idea too. it would actually make a good story.....i can see this big rambling house (one floor of course) and all of us there to help one another. wow! :)

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AZ Leah

Kathy: Count me in with maria's idea about one hourse for all of us women stroke survivors - we could have FUN and not be concerned about what others would think, say or do.

 

I could have written the paragraph you wrote about your new Y membership. That is SO me right now. I am going to try something new this year with a center in town called "FIT" and honors Silver Sneakers. I too often set myself up with trying to do too much. My advice to you and me is to take it slow and easy - try one day first, see how it works and then do another. I am about ready to post my last blog of 2008. Happy New Year; hope I make the NY chat room, Leah

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