one step forward three steps backward
well here it is past midnight and i had so many thoughts whirling around in my brain i couldn't sleep. i finally called the psychiatrist and made an appointment to see him and start the drugs again. naturally as soon as i take a step, the depression receeds. kind of makes me wonder if i should bother. but i think i've learned my lesson this time. i cannot fight it back on my own. it is not situational, it is chemical. i am not weak, i am strong because i survived a stroke and continue to advocate for myself. and i must say, i raised fine children. i've had good chats with all of them this week. they ahve good heads on their shoulders. 10 more weeks before rachel's baby is due. my first grandchild!! wonder who she is and will be? boy this entry is all over the place isn't it.
anyone have any good suggestions for a baby shower? that is what is keeping me awake again.
si in ara (sp)
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