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ONE MONTH TODAY


jjohnson

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ONE MONTH TODAY

 

It's been a month today since you went away

I miss you being by my side

I miss everything about you

The way you would tilt your lil head to let me know

you always seemed to know exactly what I was saying

I miss your unconditional love and understanding

I could type and type and NEVER be able to cover

how very special you were to me

I never could have children, Harley, but God gave you to me

and you were the best "Son" I could ever had been blessed with

The tears just won't stop

The sadness just won't go away

I am trying to be strong

I try to be grateful for the seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years we did have together

I thank God daily, all through the day, for the happiness and memories we made together and I cling to those to get me through the rough spots.

I just wanted more

I guess it just wasn't in God's plan

I hurt Harley

I know you will always be in my heart, mind and soul

I just loved you so

but, I know you knew that

You brought so much joy, laughter, healing and love into my life

I thank you for that.

Thank you my precious lil boy for loving me. Your memories will live on forever.... If it hadn't been for my Brain Stem Stroke and the "RX" from my Cardiologist, Dr. "C" .... you would never have been part of our family.

You were such a faithful blessing to me and I thank God for YOU. Enjoy Heaven and know one day we will be together again. You are whole again and running and enjoying yourself and out of pain. God is watching over you and I know you are in good hands.

 

 

 

 

Love, Your Mommy xoxo

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Wow, I can imagine how you felt at that moment and now a month later. It seems so unreal that he's not here with you, but like you know, God had other plans for your life.

 

It reminds me of the quote by Henry Youngman...All men are not homeless, but some are home less than other!

 

Maybe if you can imagine, he just hasn't got back home yet, maybe you can sleep at night thinking he knows how to scratch and bark at the door when he wants back in the house. "Could help you sleep some nights."

 

Take care Jan, your friend for life...Fred!

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Jan:

 

No words can lesson your pain in loosing Harley. But I am happy that you are focsing on all wonderful memories he created with you both. We will all reunite with our loved ones in the heaven.

 

Asha

 

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Jan,

 

How beautifully written, Reading your poem brought tears and made me think of Daisy and how much I miss her. She's been gone for about eight years. Dogs can be so much company.

 

After Daisy died, I found a calendar of American Eskimo dogs and had the pictures to look at all year. I think Paul appreciated looking at them, also. It helped us get through that first year. So my suggestion is to get out all of your pictures and keep them handy to look at for awhile.

 

I hope you feel better soon.

 

Vi

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Maybe there is another dog out there that needs you now. I know it will not be the same, but it will help. It was be five years ago that I lost my Cinnamon at age 14. We rescued a lab mix a few months later (Kahlua) and she helped ease the pain. She will never take Cinnamon's place, but she helps make the pain a little less. It even helped your other dog (Brown Sugar) deal with the loss. He is now 14 and I know that every day I have with him is a blessing and that one day soon I think, he will go to be with Cinnamon and wait for us to come home. I will get another dog when that time comes, because I know that it will help some dog that needs me and it will help the pain.

 

Sheryl

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