I haven't been ln here for a while I guess that is because the weather has gotten warmer and I'm trying ti ride my bike more. Anyway.. I'm falling into a bit of a funk for I'm trying to loss this stroke weight and I lost 50lbs before in like 3 months by riding my bike. Granted I was able to go 20 miles a day and also was pre stroke. I think that is the hardest part. My Physician also informed that some of the medicines I take also contribute to my inability to lose weight. It sounds so petty but I ballooned up to double my size.To a younger survivor it is horrible to not be able to wear all my clothes.I'm feeling not as sexy for my husband loves me we're like two roommates. I know Its dues to a lot of stress. I feel it's my weight though I know him well enough to say no. He loves me not my weight and he never makes it an issue. Never tells me I look fat. He is just glad I'm here. Which I can't blame him... I am too.I know it takes time and Ive excepted it does but its hard for me to except. Get it?

I've feel Ive come full circle in my grieving process. Just as I think what it is ..is I tend to get angry all over again and crying.Not sure how to look at this.I'm just hitting some pot holes in my journey but I wish the pavers would make it better.. my chassy is taking a beating.