it has been a while since I've been in here but I feel the need to ask for help. I have been having some emotional problems. I need therapy but with the lack of transportation,, well you get the drift. I am becoming so sensitive to people and tones of voices. My brother-in-law and I have always bumped heads. It started with the birth of my youngest son. We got married just a month before we gave birth. My health insurance still had my maiden name on it so when I had my son and was just waking up from my c-section, he came storming into the room because he saw 'Baby Garrison' and not 'Baby Smith' There wasn't enough time for me to get on the insurance yet. "My brothers last name isn't good enough for you?" was basically what he was shouting. I was strong minded and strong willed and not afraid to stand up for my rights but then I hadn't even seen my son for he was still in PICU for I was very sick during my pregnancy as well as having emergency surgery. I had to call my husband to come from work to the hospital. ( I was in there for a few days) So he came up and I didn't bring it up again. Fast forward to a few days ago.. his attitude has always been a problem with me and he and I always but heads though we both love each other. After my stroke, people can see a change in my personality though I can't. I'm calmer and more sensitive. I agreed to watch my niece and nephew for the summer and would get paid each week for a favor of transportation to New York. I got my butt handed to me because I was the reason that we are in debt. For the past 5 years, I've caused our family to spiral down. Not the fact that my husband hasn't worked due to Union Lay offs or the fact I had a stroke and can't work now, I had to get up from the table and break down and cry, He has seen me break down and doesn't even acknowledge the fact he got me upset and my husband, his brother, doesn't really see anything wrong for that's him and he's always been that way... blah blah blah I have decided not to go over to the parents house anymore for Sunday night dinners for I don't want to fight. My husband told him not to talk to me but that is just as ignorant as if he was yelling at me. I have to pick and chose my battles and I have enough going on for my plate. Am I wrong for not going? I just feel that like others have said, I've gotten on the roller coaster of emotions and normally I'm ok.?!?!?!?!