A whole lot has happened in my world since Christmas.
I had a stroke
I found Stroke Net
I went back to work
My daughter got engaged and moved into her own apartment with her fiancee
My oldest son moved into his own apartment
I got a service dog
I had another stroke
My youngest son moved into his sister's apartment
My grandfather's estate is ready to be finally settled
It's only been 5 months since all of this happened.
Sometimes I look around and I ask myself how in the world I am handling all of this. Other days I ask myself how in the world I'm going to handle all of this. It depends on my energy level at the time.
Wow, the past 5 months have been a rollar coaster. What will the next 5 months be? Not as up and down, I hope. I could stand for a little calm and steady for a while.
I guess, I'm looking at all of this because, for so much to happen in so short a period of time, it all seems like it's just too much. I feel like a giant wave keeps scrashing over me, just as soon as I finally have my breath back from the last one. It's just too much. I'm exhausted. I don't know how much longer I can keep up the pace.
Sometimes even posting comments to the forum threads seems like it will take more than I have to give. Even the number of times I post to my blog a week has gone down.
Do we hit rough patches, like this, in the recovery process? Are there going to be times when we just feel too tired or too stressed to do even the simple little things? Will this too pass?
Probably, the answer to all of these questions is "yes." At least, I hope it is. If it weren't, it might signal that the whole heart thing is really catching up to me again. I hope not. Yes, I plan to ask my doctor about it on teh 27th, at my next appointment.
I just have to get there.