ok today is not a good day feel like complete looser & failure in life & always needing in help in all wakes of my life. I guess in life you will have both kind of days some good some bad, today is that kind of day feeling like complete looser. I recently lost my diamond erring for my one ear which is side I prefer to sleep on. also had fight with hubby about some some personal home related issue where I said some hurtful things to him & even said hurtful things about our family God in my feat of anger & now I feel doomed because our family God is the one who have always rescued us when we needed help & now in my feat of anger I got my hubby upset with me & our family God man I m digging my own grave lol. These two people are the most I need in my life. ok now back to my lost earring, & why do I always loose everything, living in this world with disability is no easy thing. had it not been my hubby by my side I would have failed royally as a mother too & would have screwed up our son's life. I have to look deep within me & realize why do I need credit or blame for anything that is happening in our life, our son's success or failures shouldn't define me & so is my abilities. or disabilities should define me or my worth as a person, when will I learn to take everything in life as prasad(gift) from God without whining about it. Anyway pray for us.