One of the reasons I liked the whole blog idea right from the first was the ability to vent, to be politically incorrect or just be in a bad mood and no one can say a word or puke all over my blog. It isn't a post on the board where I must balence a fine line between being Marry Poppins and understanding. But I find lately that those survivors that have suffered mild strokes, just can't deal. Maybe I'm at a stage where I have burn out over the whole stroke business. I know I am on one side of the canyon and all the mild stroke sufferers are on the other side. Yes we all are part of the same group, we all have paid dues of some sort to be in this exclusive club, we are all united as brothers and sisters. I just am fed up with the whining. Yes, the whining is based in fear, I know that. But I am becoming increasingly aware of the drama factor too. Many have this need to be fawned over and paid attention too because they had a mild stroke. Well so what?? Maybe I am cruel to be making comparisons in my head. But I know what I have overcome, without any emotional support from my spouse or family. I had no choice but square my shoulders, take a deep breath and keep moving on. Yeah I know much of attitude has to do with what kind of person someone is pre stroke.
I guess what has me ranting now, is the large numbers of survivors who aren't trying to focus on what they have, but rather they are all wrapped up in what they have lost. I feel as if I'm beating my head against a brick wall trying to make them face the right direction.
I think there was a reason why I never got involved or believed in support groups pre stroke. I've always been a firm believer in relying on myself, never counting on others to be there for me. I know this is a vent that is against what we do here. I think this site does good work and is worthy of much of my time each week, but I can get upset over attitudes that prevail. The poor me's, the poor survivors who can't play a game of their favorite sport, the poor survivors who are experiencing some short term memory loss. Yes, all awful things to realize and get used to for sure.But if these same survivors can work, drive, use both hands and walk, then haven't they missed the point? They aren't counting on what they have, they are focusing on what they lost. This is what has driven me up the wall. This is what I'm venting about. Yes, I'm a survivor and I'm supposed to be understanding. I do understand the losses, the deficits. I've been there, and done that but with a better attitude then some display. Yes, I had my grieving process too, we all do.I think I'm done now