Leona

I wish I knew the answer to that question- when do we forgive ourselves for the decisions we made though necessary at the time- were they the right ones? What could I have done differently? Dale only wanted to come home, and I was not able to bring him home. So many regrets and what if's. My heart goes out to you. Shirley.

Sue: So sorry--sorry!! I have been the nursing home route and understand what you are feeling. Also the living with someone. My grandaughter and her family (4 kids that she home schools and a husband that doesn't work) came to help me take care of Dale before he passed away. She was so good with him. They were supposed to be getting their own place anytime!! That didn't happen. They moved out yesterday and went to stay with her husbands uncle after an argument I had with her husband. My sewer had backed up so my son and son-in-law were out back digging to try and see the problem. I asked him if he could go help them and he refused!! So we had a few words!!! We both apoligized and they moved out. What a mess. I may be more lonely, but I am glad to have my house back. My love Shirley

Sue: My heart aches for you. I know that feeling when he wants to come home and can't. It hurts so bad to not be able to bring him home. my love and prayers Shirley

Sue: I understand what you are saying so well. I went thru all the same feelings before Dale passed away. You put all my thoughts into words. Hang in there, as I know you will. The caregiving while Dale was in the nursing home was so different than being the hands on 24/7 caregiver the one in charge which was me for so long. I, too, thought a support group for that kind of caregiving would have been a good thing. Now I am just trying to find out who I am since I am no longer a caregiver. That is different from the grief I feel. I lost my husband and I lost my job. Where do I go from here? love to you. Shirley

Sue: Playing this waiting game is very hard. I am playing it too. Wait and see--wait and see. Or "lets cross that bridge when we get to it". My thoughts are with you. Love and prayers. Shirley

Sue: I can't offer any advice than what has already been said. Just want to say how sorry I am. My love and prayers.

I also like reading your blogs, Sue. I like the way you think, too. Sorry about your fall. Leona

Sue: Very good advice. I will try to make these resolutions mine. I hope I can apply them and be more content with what my life is!! Leona