I lose my train of thought, fumble around for words, make a funny sound when saying f words, and I swear I talk super slow.
ok so maybe I talked too fast before, but I said yes speech group helps. Just sharing our stories helps, and chatting too.
Just because I can talk, do not think my speech is what it used to be. But nothing is changing.
But after they interrupt me,finish my sentence wrong,or twist my idea,and I get upset saying wait for me to say this right. I had a stroke. They say,no, you are fine.
But how to fix these things.
step one.be calm
step two.be calm
step three.be calm.
once flustered, I bumblejumble my name and address. Or I smile nodding wthillbilliegoat, what does it matter let them think for me and so they go away feeling like a genius when they were stooooopedos hitting the wrong target.
oh, those best ones are on the phone. they transfer me. I tell the script more times than an FBI fugitive, often really reading what i need to say.
..but people cut me off. transfer me.
oh and those conference calls. they say please hold while i call that office to verify discuss report and speak when they come on the line. ok once,they were not doing what I needed and I was shouting listen to me,can you hear me,this is not helpful,you are messing things up, can you just stop and listen. and that was me being creative because my mama washed my mouth for shut ups and that is 4 letter word to me.SHUP. Anyway,the nursing staff came running to see if i was ok,what is ruckus going on. As I recall, I hung up just speechless in my state of mind.
Gotta love it when they ignore me,like I speak martian. Especially when I say No. And the just keep asking. maybe a tad differently than first time maybe exactly the same. No. No. Can you hear me? Please listen to what I said. Can you respect me as a person who made her choice. No.
Mama said No Means No Every Time. I loved that and use that on all kids,no matter their age.
So they think my stroke ruined my mind, but then they expect me to be brilliant. Make up your mind.