I am having a really sad day today. Some days are better than others but today just seems to be so hard. I feel like I am slowly watching my husband die a little each day. My heart if being ripped out of my chest. I have moments that I feel like he would be better off if God would just take him home but then he looks at me and smiles and then I think what would I do if I wasn't able to see his smile or hear his voice. I told myself that I would focus on all the things that he can do instead of focusing on the things that he can't, but then I find myself doing it again. Thanks for listening...sometimes I just have to say it out loud and someone listen.