still scary anticipating pain. but after will be good thing. i will go get food too. i fasting now. hungry. i go get a bite in hospital cancer center. I always glad I not there usually.

my hand jerks. what is this ? no one knows. but texting is bad.

ok here we go again. the sedation part cant come quick enough.

i wearing lucky shawl with big buttons.

i feel alone.

son texting me.

angels all around of course. 

we just do.