I had a pretty decent day today. We moved my wife's computer from one end of the house to the new office we had set up for the company. I didn't think I did that much but about 2:30pm, I had a real bad fatigue attack. These seem to come on suddenly. I can't really do anything when they hit.

Luckily, there are none of the symptoms normally associated with a TIA along witht he fatigue.

I think I can sum up how I feel in one sentence:

I am TIRED of being TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am also having trouble thinking clearly today. I told my wife three times that we needed to write our housekeeper a chick. Chick!!! What the heck is a chick? It actually is check. That may seem insignificant to most but it is significant for me in that I am having trouble coming up with the correct word to day. I thought the work "check" . I said "check" instead.

My dear wife handed me a book this afternoon and suggested that I might want to read it. The book was A Delicate Balance - Living successfully with Chronic Illness by Susan Milstrey Wells. She had bought it when she was first diagnpsed with her neuropathy. I guess things really have come full circle. I wonder what the future holds. I wonder what the people in my company's Disability Management people are up to. It is really frustrating to know that your future is in the hands of people who do not know you and probably do not care for you or about you.

I know I have three people in my corner. First, there is my dear wife and caregiver. She has sacrificed so much to ensure I am taken care of. She has also been assisting me in advocating my case to the members of the medical community. She is also good for a swift kick in the pants when it is needed. I am so lucky to have her.

Second, there is my daughter. She was really scared when I first had my stroke back in November. However, she has been supportive of what we are doing here. She is also concerned which is a good thing. She is remarkably mature for her age. Yeah, she sometimes does have Blonde moments but that is probably because she is a natural Blonde.

Third, there is me. I have to have faith in myself and not get into a funk. I realize that I can't give up. I will find out what is causing these cursed TIAs and how to keep them from occurring again.

More later.

Charles Ramsey