This blog is long and about the murder of my friend. I have chosen to publish it in order to own the event as part of my life, an event I had buried after the "in your face" media sensation ended. I apologize if this seems in any way inappropriate, this is not my intention.

I've been psychoanalyzing the life altering events of my life quite a bit in the last few weeks. Many of the events I can pin point exactly how the event changed me. Others, I am not sure exactly HOW I changed, I just know I did.

One of those life-altering events has been on my mind a lot lately for reasons I don