Well it is official. Today, April 22, my wife and I had lunch with the Director of the office I work out of and I am no longer employed. Is this good or is it bad? I guess I have not decided yet. But there is nothing I can do about it. Being still "technically" employed gave me one more normal thing to hold on to. Now I'm not sure how I feel.

One thing is kind of nice. I have known this day was coming for about 5 months. As it got closer and closer it bothered me more. Now this isn't anything that needs to use up any of my now more limited brain power. It seems that I have been living with "deadlines" even more than when I was working. First it was get out of the hospital, then it was a two week checkup, then another scheduled check. At first I was told I would be "normal" after 3 months and I kept measuring myself by that estimate/standard. Then I was told it will take one or two years for me to recover. Here is a news flash that ALL of us strokers have picked up, the doctors have no clue how long each of us is going to take to get back or the path that we will take or even how far we will get back for that matter. It is interesting that when I used to have a job :roflmao: if I had given my client such vague and innacurate information I would have been fired long ago. There was some good adivice in a comment to one of my blogs; take the first year to just heal. Well I've got everything going for me now... let the healing begin.