Susan, speaking as a caregiver and not a survivor I think it is because it is such a long haul that we all get tired. There doesn't seem to be a road map for the future and I sometime suspect that what happens is obscured by what I think ought to have happened and so I don't give full credit to myself for what I do achieve so much as castigate myself for what I have not achieved.

I think this requires a different kind of thinking as the situation we are in is like a long, slow journey. On that life journey, what you do each day does not matter so much as what you do over a longer period of time. So new enterprises and new developments are not as important as finding fulfillment in what you are able to do, the reading, the work you do here, the keeping together of home and family.

There was a way of looking at the sacredness of everyday tasks that keeps me centred. It is not what you do that counts so much as doing what you do to the full extent of your ability. So the task itself is important. This eliminates a lot of the guilt, if you do a few a tasks well and then you rest from your labours. And leisure time should be just that, a way of resting, of renewing your energy for the future.

I know this all sounds like the philosophy of the medievalists and a lot of it probably is as I've studied them a good deal. But that is my answer to your "Faith Crisis".

Sue.