i have not posted on here for ages.
I am not in a good place at the moment.
I cannot get rid of this resentment of everything the stroke has done to me and robbed me of.
I cannot get used to having to do things a different way because I can no longer do it the way I used to. I am so fed up of everything beng a struggle and a fight - even something simple like making a cup of tea has to be planned out.
I have no memory at all and forget from one moment to the next.
I am registered blind as the stroke destroyed practically all my vision.
i have no balanc, no perception, understanding or spatial awareness.
There is not one part of my life that the stroke has not left a muddy dirty footprint on.
It is not self pity - but huge amounts of anger and resentment.
On 16th of this month it is 3 years since my stroke.
Surely I should be further along than this?
Add to the fact that 3 times in 2 months I have been scanned and tested for more strokes.
My arthritis has spread to my left hip and left wrist - which is normal considering my left side has the weaknes since the stroke.
It could not have gone to my right side and made things a touch easier could it?!
All in all not a good time at all