I struggle.every day wondering if I should care what I look like. Before stroke, I looked good to others but not sure I looked good to myself (always thinking I could look better). Not moving for a year and eating to make it thru a day I put on lots of weight. Luckly I am now able to walk and do the treadmill for 30 minutes a day, the problem being that is about all the energy I have for the day. I went on nutra system and lost 30 lbs then took a break. I am now going back on this to try and lose another 30', 2nd time though is harder because it is no fun and now I know what to expect. I feel bad for my husband of 31 years, he sees that people look at me and think fat slob, is this fair to him. He says he doesn't care but I'm not even sure how I feel. On a good note we are off to New Orleans for the week, before our diet(he is doing it with me). I don't want to put on more weight but it is the city of food. Does any one else go thru this?