Lately I have had a few visitors come by plus a new priest and they commented on my old collage posters and watercolors that decorate my room. I am amazed they like what was some magazine pictures pasted on posterboard  And then as we talked I learned they liked the sayings I put there and the themes. I had a low time when my identity seemed to change or dissappear and I needed to talk but the feelings would not come,so I had art. Now these remind me of women passed away who were my companions then and one also made them. She wanted hers to be like mine.  Now I like to add coloring pages with magazines cut outs. I am amazed the glue stick worked nothing fell off in a year. I had things going on. milestones. And they say I should lead a class. I Say Art picks you and is there to sooth calm and bring healing when you think you cannot create. For me it is fun and helps my vision.

I got acrylic nails! I chose a coral pink but the gel was a neon pink once on!  But I said Ok the universe gave us brighter color and I proudly showed I was outside my comfort zone doing some growth. Now someone criticized I picked a young color. Indeed I agree it is bright and young, not my first choice so out of pastels or red. I have many compliments too,but I feel insecure now is what I like not good enough.  You see I have not had long bright artificial nails in forever or ever. not really! And this is fun! I got flowers on my toes even!  I enjoyed a good pedicure for health reasons clean around toenails trim cutoicles and I also miss a great nail set. Why not who cares if I try out a long length I never thought I could do anything with,now I have maids and servents at the snf!  Well you know some were not approaving! Well I think they want me to only feel pain and never pleasure so phooey on them! I am going for the rest of my spa promised to me by good son. In morning he comes to take me to hair salon! I have thin hair but a new color can fix it up nice! 

someone said you leave here?

I replied It is not prison!

I Will see a movie and eat out.

I feel pain sometimes but less and I want to go! 

Why cannot they rejoice too?

My communion lady loved my long nails and reccommendeed the steak house so there! I bought new shirts and pants all soft material like they have now.

I go to therapy outside of here too🌴

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I feel better and a sign is trying look nicer and the office girls are behind times, we want to be old and trendy too!