After reading Jean's blog tonight I got to thinking about songs and how they changed post-stroke.

I wish I could credit the artists, but I know songs and not artist names.

The song that makes me cry now everytime I hear it is Another Day in Paradise. I used to like listening to that song, now everytime I hear it I have to stop what I'm doing until the waterworks finally stop.

Other songs that used to almost make me cry, and now do make me cry are;

Christmas Shoes and Don't Take the Girl. Christmas Shoes is just an all round sad song to begin with. Don't Take the Girl just hits home hard, esp. the last verse "Lord, take me out of this world, but please don't take the girl". While Kathy was struggling for her life, I would have switched places with her without hesitation.

Now, at this point, I would refuse to switch places with her. I'm not being cold, but I rather her face the challenges of a survivor trying to regain as much as she can. I wouldn't want my wife to see me dependant on someone for basic neccesaities. That pain is bad enough without adding the stress of facing $250,000 in hospital bills, regular bills, insurance fighting me now that they have to actually pay money rather than just collect, ..... sorry, this list would continue for several pages if I allowed myself to get carried away.

All in all, I am glad this is just another day in paradise rather that me trying to figure out how to continue on as a widower.