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Calming Down

This blog was set invisible by Steve Mallory.   -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------     I had planned on driving up to Michigan this weekend to confront Kathy's family face to face. I'm still hot under the collar about what they said and did to her. But, I've decided to let it go.   I talked with Kathy's social worker after she had and it seems it would be better for her to stay in town. Everyone at the day care loves and cares for Kat

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Her family

Last night was a rough one for me and Kathy.   Kathy's sister called and said that having Kathy move up to MI would disrupt their lives too much and she should just stay down here. Then she went into this speach how she was better than me because she stuck by her husband, and their work and home lives couldn't revolve around taking care of an invalid.   I got so *beep* after 10 minutes of her lecturing me I hung up. When she called back I gave her to Kathy and Kathy got so *beep* she tol

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Comming to a close

This weekend I'm taking Kathy up to Michigan to live with her father until they can find her an assited living place close to her family. Next week is cleaning frenzy time to get back my old way of doing things.   For the past 4 years I've been playing the part of the happy little husband while my insides where churning. I knew from the moment I married Kathy that our marriage was going to end in a divorce, it was only a matter of when and why.   So why did I marry her you ask? I had pl

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View from the floor

Something happened a couple days ago that hasn't happened to me in some time.   I was turning the ceiling fan in the kitchen down when I had what I call my "mini blackouts". These things really suck the big one. First I get dizzy, then my eyesite blacks out except for sparks, then I get a ringing in my ears, and lastly I become completely disoriented.   Usually I can grab a wall or whatever to brace myself until the few minutes it takes these things to pass. Unfortunatly where I was sta

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He's BaaAAaack

Hello everyone in Strokenet land   Y'all may have noticed that except for blogs and an occasional post here and there, I went inactive. Many of you know the story of what is happening in my personal life. Only a handfull know the full story.   Basically things are looking up in my world finally. I was going through a period where my usuall anti-depresents were'nt helping me. And yes, I did contiplate suicide. That's over and done with. I'm back to my normal go happy self.   N

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Miss Right

Two blogs about men, so here's one about women.   I won't even try to catagorize women. They are so diverse that I couldn't begin to do that, not to mention I know better . So here are my views on Miss Right, and not Miss Right Now.   There were 3 charateristics in a female I've been drawn too from an early age, that I still prefer. Blue eyes, southern accent, and wears glasses. All my family have blue eyes and I like familiar things. Even though I married a yank, I never lost my lov

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From an email

I got this as part of a chain email, which I appall. The beginning of the email was great, so I'm copying that part and pasting it into this blog.   Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him. Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Wait for the one who is constantly r

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Computer Viruses

While cleaning up my computer I got to thinking about computer viruses and decided to go ahead and write a twisted blog entry .   A little known trivia is that the computer virus originated as part of an early AI (Artificial Intelegence) experiment. It was designed to be a self replicating computer program.   With the advent of home computers viruses really started to take off. One of the more memoriable early viruses was the Green Worm. This virus showed a green worm "hence the name"

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Casualties of a vacation

Except for an unexpected snag at the beginning my weekend was great. The problem happened when I got home.   I was told that the computer was acting funny. I turned it on and the first thing I noticed was an icon on the desktop for a dialer program. Since I don't have a modem this program was boggin down the system, so I went to remove the little pest and found a nightmare in shadows.   The friend who watched Kathy let his friend play on the computer for a bit. This is a porn and Warez

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Tomorrow is the day

Except for a reservation snag, everything went smooth with all the planning. Tomorrow I throw my stuff in the car and take off to TN to meet my old college chums.   I've found my college album so we can relieve to "good old days". Maybe I can snag some free Disneyland tickets .   It'll be me (Kathy free for 3 wonderful days), 2 other guys, and 2 gals. I just hope we didn't leave our college fun in college. It'll still be great to renetwork with the old gang.

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Southerns

I've been reading several posts about how us southerns are. Don't be fooled by the imitations!   Us southern folks can really be divided into several catagories: Southern, Hillbilly, Red Neck, Inbread, and Citified.   Southern:   The southern is your catch all cream of the crop classification. This is more a mindset than a lifestyle. These are the people you see sitting on their front porch drinking lemonaid or tea, chatting away, and waving hello to people walking down the street o

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Recipe of the week

I have nothing insightful to write about today. Nothing major going on in my life, that I wish to share. No inspirations for poetry. So for today's blog here is a quick recipe that I love.   1 box Mac & Cheese 1 can drained tuna 1 can cream of mushroom 1 can drained mushrooms 1 package saltine crackers.   Preheat oven to 450 degrees.   Cook Mac & Cheese according to directions on box. Stir in cream of mushroom, tuna, and mushrooms.   Pour into glass cassarole dish

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VACATION TIME!!!!!

There's nothing to say for it, but OMG!!!!   I've been trying to plan this for a bit, but didn't want to mention it to anyone just in case that jinxed the process.   I got in contact with my old college gang, and we've been trying to plan a reunion. It was decided on a camp out next weekend. All were comming, except me. That really sucked, but it couldn't be helped.   Well, everything started falling into place finally. I got a babysitter for Kathy confirmed yesterday. Today I conf

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Choices

If you've seen the movie Pirates of the Caribean, the you know one line of the movie is "that's a smart match". A made was talking to the leading (ahem, cute) actress about a marriage proposel.   I've often wonder why I see people making life choices based on this theory. Heck, I've done it myself on numberous occasions. The choice is made over a smart match, even though we know it isn't a match that holds true to our character.   The most basic of these is when it comes to snack food.

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Awaken (original poem)

I sit up in bed and I am wide awake These sensations are so new, are they real or fake? If I was to die now, would my life have been a waste? Did I take a bite out of the apple and enjoy the taste?   With memories abound and experiences untold, I wrap myself in my blankets, though I'm not that cold. I strain my ears for a familiar sound To these feelings, am I forever bound?   In the darkness of the room, the secrets are kept. Would they have be stolen if I went on and slept?

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The good, the bad, and the not-so-pretty

There's a quote from an old tv series "When I started pulling at the loose threads from my past, my entire life tapestry became unraveled." This was said by Captain Picard in Star Trek, The Next Generation.   For those who are unfamiliar with this show or this paticular episode, Picard was allowed to go back into his past and repair one mistake. When that happened, his entire life changed for the worst.   I'm sure we all have those moments we would love to go back and do over to "correct

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Do bees have a mob?

I think cinder sent her bee down here to harass me today.   I was rekeying a storage room and heard it "bzzzzzzzzzzzz". I look up just in time to duck as this bumble bee comes diver bombing me. I'm not too afraid of these things, so I took a swipe and knocked it out of the ball park (ok, so it went over the hedges into the next door's yard".   I went back to work and a minute later heard it again. I look up and he brought his friend with him. So, I reach into my lock box and pull out t

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Unconditional Love

Looks like several members figured out the one I love the most in this world. Yes, I have come to love me the most.   There's an old saying "You can't love others until you love yourself", and that is a very true statement. On the flip side of that is "If you don't love yourself, then you will love someone you don't really love".   I wanted to fill a void of love in me so bad, that I jumped into bad relationship after bad relationship. I ended up marrying someone who was wrong for me

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Who I love the most

Like most people, I'm looking for that one person to truly love for the rest of my life. Now, I have Kathy but I was so desperate for that life long love that I settled for the one who agreed to marry me and paid for it.   Recently I've been talking with friends and soul searching and I found the one person that I can love the rest of my life unconditionally. It's funny how fate brought us together, but in return I know I'll be a much better person for it.   Learning to like this person

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Age?

Nothing to really blog about today, so here are some more personal thoughts.   After a conversation I today with a close friend I got to thinking and came to interesting discovery. I don't have any friends within my age bracket. All my true friends are 10 years or older than me.   This has always been the case with me growing up. Sure, I played with kids my own age and had school friends but if given the choice I prefered to hang out with the adults. I enjoyed their conversations and

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Giggling Girls

This morning defently had my face turning 4 shades of red.   I woke up with Kathy yelling for me. I ran to see what was going on and she was outside with the door wide open and the cat trying to make a run for it. So, I dived on the cat and picked him up to bring him back inside.   That's when I heard it. A couple of teenage girls were standing on the sidewalk giggling. There I was, outside in my undies and holding a cat. So, I ran back inside and locked the cat in the bathroom while

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She shoots.... OH, just missed it

Well, the results of mine and Kathy's talk was that nothing has changed one dang bit. We got into a big yelling match last night because I had fallen asleep on the couch and she wanted me in bed. Ok, actually I had been awake for 30 minutes when it started and was talking to K on the phone. But the argument was about the fact I wasn't in bed where she thought I should be.   I did get to talk to T for a little while last night. She was getting ready for a date, so I couldn't talk long. I

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The talk

Welp, it finally happened last night. Me and Kathy had the "D" talk.   It was the strangest experience I have ever had talking to her. For the first time we actually talked. She didn't get mad, warp what I was saying, or took anything to the extreme. It was an actuall conversation.   When we were finished she said she was sorry and didn't realize she had been such a *itch. Of course she doesn't want to loose me, and will try to change (been down that road before, which didn't work).

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To K or not to K?

I've just been doing some thinking and since I have no ideas for a good blog entry I'll jot down some interesting things I've come to realize.   It seems I have a thing for Ks and never realized it. I've been engaged 2 times (not counting Kathy) and married once. My first Fiancee's name was Kimberly, my second's was Kristy, and then there was Kathy. So, am I doomed by the Ks, or is this a patern I should stick with? Guess only time will tell.   I have a bad habit of putting other peopl

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