I am awake so I decided to blog. I went to the hematologist last week and my white blood cell count was normal. I have also been sick for the last few weeks though so Im still not sure if anything is wrong. I have to go back and see the hematologist next week so he can look at everything else in my blood and make sure everything is okay.

I was reflecting on 2011 and I realized I got everything I wanted (with the exception of my left field vision). I got a car, a license, a job, and I moved my left hand for the first time in 10 years! at the same time though, I got in an accident, lost my job position, and found out insurance wasnt going to give me the opportunity to move my hand again. My prayer for 2012 is that I will get another job that I can keep, keep my license and car, and that I will be blessed with an e-stim device I can exercise with everyday.

I promised that I would only write positive blog entries a few months ago but honestly I do feel sad a lot. I get so depressed from sitting in my room all alone by myself. With the exception of the summer months I spent working, I spent 2011 laying in my bed on my computer and watching tv. I had no boyfriend the whole year and my girlfriends were busy in school so my social life consisted of mainly twitter. (I know..so sad.)

Well I decided I don't want to spend 2012 the way I spent 2011. I am registered to start school next week which will keep me busy with 3 graduate courses. I am still praying that I will receive this assistantship which will cover my tuition and pay me to work at the school part time AND I am waiting to get a call for an interview for a part time library position I applied for. I really want to stay busy! I have also took to hanging out with my cousins, brothers, 2nd cousins, and nieces and nephews. I was so busy with school for so many years I never hung out with my family much but now that my friends have graduated and moved on, I am finding comfort in my family. It feels good sometime just to get out of my bed away from my depressing room and drive to my brother's house to play wii with my nephews or go to church with my cousin. I am much happier when I am around others so I hope this year will bring much time to stay busy and NOT so much time to sit around with nothing to do thinking of sad depressing thoughts.