Well I seen the neurologist last week. Instead of getting medicine for pseudobulbar affect, I asked him for an anti-depressant. He gave me zoloft but said it would take about 4 weeks to start making a difference. I feel good for the most part. I have a boyfriend for the first time in almost 2 years and he gives me lots of love and attention so that definitely helps with the depression. I just wish I could get my dad off my back. Ever since he retired and his girlfriend dumped him, he always has an attitude about me hanging out with my boyfriend. He thinks Im "running the roads" and "up to no good". He even rides by my boyfriend's house to see if my car is there. It is very annoying. I was not allowed to date until I turned 18 and graduated. I finally have a car and he is in my case about hanging out with one guy Im not even having sex with. It puts me in a bad mood every time I come home and makes me wish I could move away already. I worked hard to get my license, bought my own car in my name, and pay insurance in my name so to constantly be hounded about where Im going and who Im with is VERY annoying. I am trying to move out as soon as I start working in May. I already have money saved up. I think I will be happier being out, independent, and on my own but my dad says I can't move because I can't live by myself. I hate being here. being in this room and treated like a kid makes it very hard for me to be happy which is why I love hanging out with my boyfriend and his family but it does no good when I have to constantly come home to my dad who treats me like Im still 15. I can't wait to move!

I also visit my mom a lot. This week I visited my mom, brother and his kids, grandmother, and aunt. Tomorrow I have to babysit my other brother's kids. Im so glad I have a car. I love the independence. I hope my license never gets taken away.

I have the anti-depressant to help my mood, my boyfriend keeps me from being lonely and thinking about sad things, and I signed up for a Faith & Healing class at church so I really am trying to be happy