Hard Revelations
In a perfect world I would be well justified to gripe about the unfairness of it all but we know this isn't a perfect world so it would only be and has only been a waste of energy that I have little of to start with. It doesn't seem right that I can't even expect to be granted accommodations that most people take for granted but instead of waiting for fairness, I know it will not change until I change it.
I guess I've known that all along but I let my limitations blind me. I can't change the situation right away but I can start making changes to the barriers that have stood in my way up to now. Progress is going to be slow and I know I'll have to watch out for discouragement and the urge to throw my hands up and quit but I've had enough--I'm getting out of this mess (that sounded better in my head than it does in black and white) one small step at a time and once I do I'm never looking back.
This week has been spent rearranging my room so that I can spend most of my time in there. In the past, it would have taken perhaps a day to get it done but this isn't the past. It's time to turn the page. One page at a time I'll get through this chapter and hopefully start a new one.
I expect some resistance from family as I make changes that upset their apple carts but it is what it is and they're all adults and will have to accept that things are changing for good.
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