I'm a great wanderer and was like that before the stroke but here lately I have started wondering how would I have been had I not learned to walk, started driving again or lost another wife for the fourth time?? Then when I come back to my senses I have to give thanks to my God for allowing me to heal in all the right places at a time much sooner than I had expected!

After five months in the hospital I said Oh, Oh, I'm going to need help for the rest of my life, what did I do so bad to deserve this?? I wondered day after day and night after night and all the time this wife was showing me that she was with me for the rest of our lives together! Well when you have had to walk away from three wives and experiences since my return from the war you start to wonder when will this all end where I can keep one wife, get a house and retire??

I wonder no more my wife is with me all the way stroke or whatever comes our way she tells me our lives together is held together by God's grace!! That's great news in my case and her son is getting married next month to a wonderful lady and she joined our church today as our newest member. I wondered if she would since he was already a member and aide to our pastor So I gain a daughter in law and my wife's daughter already lives with us and her little daughter (my little smart granddaughter) and her little puppy we got her for making the honor roll!!!!

I suppose when one wonders a long time God will show us and reveal some things like when you get the woman her kids come too and it's known if you get the woman you got her kids too! So if the woman cares for her kids she will care for you too and visa verse!! I wonder but like to think that the older we get the more we settle down and the closer we get to making that all home bound trip to meet our maker in heaven!! We become a real man and give up the foolish and childish ways!

Jesus often reminded His followers not to worry and not be anxious about tomorrow's needs or potential problems. Jesus stressed a daily reliance on the Father, who provides for His children day by day!! I'm trying very hard to trust the Lord for daily needs as every man should!!

Now for me that gives me more time to do many other things in the day and not have to wonder any more! Maybe I can start walking during the day with the little puppy on her leash and hope to recover enough to stop using my cane??? Practice makes perfect they say?? I'm not going to wonder who they are!!!