I ran Bruce ragged this weekend. Friday noon I got home at lunch, exhausted. After lunch and nap, Bruce refused his shower, he did his Estims, snack and mail, set the table for dinner. He channel surfed most of the afternoon and I was too exhausted to argue.

I planned out Saturday and Sunday, something to do both days even tho the weather was iffy. Our ramp sits right under a Maple tree that is flowering. For several weeks, you can sweep that ramp every hour and still not have it cleared, plus we had rain. Erma is at odds with "her floors" as to what we track in - LOL. But I remind Bruce that he has to have a heads up for me going up and down, and he does great. Getting him away from the TV was worth it.

Funny thing, in thinking over all the wonderful responses to my post "What Next?" I always consider Bruce. I will say to him "what is on your agenda today?" His response is always the routine (his comfort zone). I will ask what he is willing to do for himself. His standard reply is always reading and then he asks "what is on your list?" or will say "Follow you." So you see my dilemma. I list what has to be done and always ask if he wants to come with me.

This morning when I got up, I knew he was out of sorts. He has been getting up just a tad earlier: 4:45am. But last night he was not asleep when I got into bed. Still channel surfing. This is rare in that he gets his Zanaflex at night. I always give it 20 minutes to kick, so he is generally out by the time I get into bed. I asked him this morning what was up and he said he did not feel well. It is hard for Bruce to explain, but he did ask for Tylenol - something he never does. He insisted I go to work, but I did wait for Erma to get here and asked her to have him lay down later. Bruce refused of course, but when I got home for my break (my double shift day) Bruce had lunch and then took a two hour nap. He was incontinent for Pema, so I know something is brewing.

I know he is muscle sore. His February Botox is wearing off. He moved independently in the WC a lot this weekend. Plus his blood levels are adjusting still to the new medications. By the way, his Vitamin D levels are finally back to normal. I know if I cave and cater to him, he will take advantage. So I kept to my schedule, knowing he had the best care here if not me. I did relent after nap when he asked not to go back into the AFO, but rather shoes and the snack he requested was more calories than I prefer and Bruce knows that.

As to the job, that may be a moot point - LOL. Major middle administration change today. This group loved me. The new group due to take over, not so much -LOL. My decision may be made for me. Debbie